Suddenly, there it was. A car, on the side of a dirt road. I am justified, I rationalized. Was this the object of my salvation? Â The short-lived battle of mind and body yielded as I manipulated the locked door and slipped inside. Thud. Click. I turned the key. The engine roared. And, then it happened. It was glorious. Heavenly. Click, click. The whoosh of air. Wait. Wait. Ah!Â
Minutes passed as my pounding heart began to slow. The fog lifted and reason returned to my mind as the temperature of my core began its downward progress. Time passed. I don’t know how long. I didn’t care. I began to remember, to know myself once again.
Enthroned in this chariot not my own, I pondered what this was going to cost me. What consequences will unfold?
Then, the melted cacophony crystalized – a singular thought that to this day I have never forgotten, and until now, never before admitted. “I wonder what the crew is having for lunch back on set?